Deep System of Self-Development

Almost everything I have in my life now, as it is, was possible thanks to GSR Module 1.

Could I have managed without it? Could I have continued living my life? I could, but let’s be honest and look at me before GSR and now:

✅ I’m writing this post in Thailand, where I’ve been living with my family for three years now. Before GSR, taking my family abroad for a vacation would have taken me five years to save up.

✅ I have a dream job that gives me every opportunity for self-realization, with complete freedom of action and no financial ceiling. I can be anywhere in the world, live the way I want, and it won’t interfere with my work. But at my previous work at Russian Railways, where a stress-free day meant a day off, that was simply unrealistic.

✅ And speaking of income, an income of 150,000 rubles a month used to be a daring dream for me, but now that figure simply doesn’t fit my standard of living.

✅ I always have a big goal, I always know where I’m going, and most importantly, I’m always growing. Before GSR Module 1, I was completely confused, uncertain, had no understanding of my place in life, and I lacked self-reliance.

✅ I’ve realized my dreams of freedom, and I am realizing my dream of self-realization. Before, everything depended on work, which wouldn’t let me find it.
Who would I recommend GSR Module 1 to? To everyone I love, to everyone I wish well, to everyone who is searching for themselves, who strives for more, who wants to transcend their limitations…

Many are convinced that a dream is something unattainable. But I state the opposite.

What inspires me so much about GSR is that with this system, anything is possible.
What you’ve been unable to achieve for years, even for your entire life, becomes a reality. Regardless of your current status, age, or starting point.

❤ My most tangible result with GSR is mutual love.

But first, I’ll describe how it all began.

I came to GSR with a problem of apathy. I didn’t want anything, my life seemed to be in decline, and I was just “getting by,” even though everything seemed fine at first glance. My work and my son came first, and I had relationships that fizzled out from time to time. After the GSR sessions healed my apathy, I became inspired and tried Module 1 (working with myself), but then gave it up (I was living a normal life, after all). During the pandemic, I started having problems with my business. I started actively practicing sessions and signed up for a curator group with the “I want money!” request. But it became clear that if you want to make money, it’s not about money 😉 We unpacked my feminine resources and all that comes with them. And so unexpectedly, I found a man with whom I now have a wonderful relationship!

I’ve always dreamed of marrying a captain 😆
Well, not exactly a captain, but in the spirit of having a man who would go on business trips and then come back.
I explained it to myself like this: firstly, the freshness of feelings, no boredom or routine. Secondly, I’m so active that I can’t fit everything into my life: I had to choose between my personal life, amateur theatre, photography club, and singing…

Now, you could say my dream has come true)) My man is on another business trip, and I’m not happy about it at all!
And I realized what has been behind my dream. I couldn’t be in a long-term contact or relationships; I was always “on my own”; I wanted to be a festive woman, but that’s impossible to either play or endure for long.

What’s changed now:

1. I’ve become resourceful; I have enough energy for everything, certainly for the most important things.
2. I’ve learned to give this resource, not to close myself off, not to limit myself, not to “hold back,” and not to scatter it on everything and everyone.
3. I’ve accepted myself as multifaceted. To accept myself as I am and to be accepted.
4. I’ve learned to live a life! In which everything is interesting, every moment, every event, every state.
5. And, it seems, I’ve learned to love from abundance. Simply to choose, simply to give, simply to receive. Simply.

And there was also the fear that “it would all end.” Now that fear is gone; I know what to do when something goes wrong (and more often than not, it only seems to). I capture the state on a paper, and everything magically changes. Inside me and outside.

This is the result of a year of working with my states.

I’ve been with GSR since 2018, and I can’t say my results are top-tier. They’re few and far between, and they don’t include a 10x income, fabulous relationship, or new jobs or positions.

To be fair, I never set such goals. By the time GSR came into my life, I’d already achieved things I wanted to in frustration, and the emergence of new frustrations wasn’t particularly frightening; been there – done that. There was no need to change anything; the hounds chasing me had left and were tired. And I was tired too.

Thus, before joining the expert mentorship, I didn’t really understand why I was there. I named one goal at the start—relocating, which I still have, but it has transformed and sounds completely different. Another conscious goal emerged about a year and a half ago, and it sounds like “Who am I?” or “Why am I?” It remains relevant today, taking on different nuances depending on the focus.

However, there have been changes along my path that I didn’t declare as goals, but which, once they occurred, have become very valuable and meaningful to me.

Here are my most significant and noticeable changes over the past six years:

– My life no longer sucks for me
– I learned to separate the past from the present and focus on the latter
– My relationship with my children has changed; I began to see them the way they are

Each of these points has a long story, with stories worthy of a dozen posts. But it doesn’t sound as epic as a 10x income.

And recently, a change occurred for which the words “important” and “valuable” don’t adequately reflect the essence, because they are some other characteristic of significance.

The story will be long.

From the very beginning of my expert mentorship, the expert provided unconditional support for my creative expressions, which were scarce due to my chosen lifestyle. I was surprised and resisted, considering it nonsense and whimsical, but gradually I got into it and even began to enjoy it.

Interesting processes began to emerge during my creative expression, which I sometimes captured on paper to see what was underneath. The results were more than intriguing, which stimulated further progress in this direction.

At some point, I started drawing. Typically, during deep work with the specialist and webinars.

And so, before one of the last expert meetings, I drew my state. And I made another drawing after working with the captured symptoms. Just for fun, I don’t know why. I don’t even really draw. The expert suggested using these drawings to capture the symptom that caused a CHANGE after working with it.

As a child, I graduated from music school. I ended up there by chance. My first teacher came to the kindergarten and, after listening to me, wanted to take me on as a student. I played with great pleasure, but studying there was difficult. Nevertheless, I still played pieces outside the required curriculum and even composed some.

And then everything stopped for over twenty years. I chose not to play, not to approach the instrument at all. Not only did the skills and events associated with the piano fade from my memory, but even the sensations of playing did.

With expert mentorship over the past few months, I began to recall certain facts from that life and couldn’t believe it was possible to forget so much.

Two months ago, I decided to open the lid of my old piano, put down the sheet music… and couldn’t produce a single sound. Not only because I couldn’t remember the notes or the technique, but also because I was incredibly hurt inside by it all. I cried for an hour and a half before I guessed to capture the symptom. An expert helped me capture another one at the next meeting.

But by then I’d already decided for myself – never again. I even started thinking about how to get rid of the piano, which has been with me for 38 years, 23 of which it has been silently standing in the corner of the room.

And so, two or three weeks ago, I did a symptom based on my drawings, as recommended by the expert, and the next day I realized: I want to play.

I found and downloaded some interesting sheet music, and I wanted to download something else fun for my daughter. These were the “Fixie” Songs.

I’ll quote from my diary below:

“I play. From the moment this started, I lived a different life.

The “Fixie” Songs turned out to be the entry point into the game.

I picked it up with both hands, quickly read the score, and Vlada and I sang about “the Helper” for half an hour :)).

Immediately after, I picked up “the piece” and suddenly started playing it too. Stumbling, trying to remember musical notation, horrified by the out-of-tune piano and my lost technique.

I don’t know what to call the feeling when you find yourself in a place you were afraid to even think you could go. Where you’ve already given up going in your right mind and memory.

And then I realized that this is exactly what I came to GSR for. Not oil rigs, not relationships, not anything else. But for a chance to be myself THAT MUCH.

“Since I started playing, my perspective on almost everything has changed dramatically.

The first thing I noticed was in my relationship with my daughter. That first day, having sung a bunch of Fixie songs, she lay down on the sofa next to the piano and spent the entire evening watching me try to recall my musical skills.
“It’s very beautiful,” she replied to my question about whether she was tired of it.

“What’s beautiful?” I asked.

“It sounds and looks beautiful. It’s all very beautiful.”

She’s twelve, and she’d never seen me at the piano before.

After that first time, I was overjoyed for two days. I had trouble falling asleep, and all I could think about was playing—I ran to the instrument in every spare five minutes to play, and play, and play it again. I was like someone who hadn’t been able to quench their thirst for a long time, and now I had this opportunity.

That makes one more non-top-tier result, but one of the most important for me, probably, after three years of expert mentorship and six years in GSR. A result I’d denied, wanted to get rid of, and generally said, “It’s not me, I don’t need this.”

I’m playing the piano again.

And it’s as if that’s what I came here for.

The expert says this is just the beginning. The baby learned to walk 🙂

And this isn’t really a piano story.

GSR Module 1 gives anyone the opportunity to work with themselves, their internal processes, uncomfortable states and unpleasant feelings, and helps them achieve their goals faster.

I was looking to solve problems and was intrigued by this opportunity to independently develop myself, gain resources, and resolve life’s obstacles. So, I did daily sessions for three or four months straight. That’s why I started seeing results quite quickly.

✔️ At first, I noticed a new inner balance, a sense of equanimity, delight at a new vision of the unity of the world, and a calmness about current events (the pandemic).

✔️ I gained a new perspective on familiar things, and I wanted to discuss them constantly. It was as if I finally saw not only the elephant’s trunk but also its enormous ears—a new perspective.

✔️ I gained resources, energy, and the ability to expand my social circle (previously, communicating with others was very draining). I became more open with people. I made many new acquaintances.

✔️ I gained confidence in myself, my abilities, and my ability to handle things. I began to realize that many things are achievable.

✔️ I began to understand my feelings better. I developed an interest in doing things with a specific purpose—reading, traveling, etc. My understanding of English improved (tension went away).

✔️ I started working with a trainer (I always wanted to try it and planned to start in 2017, but I only made it to the gym in the fall of 2020).

✔️ I went alone to a new city to see GSR specialists I barely knew for self-promotion.

✔️ I started reading less aimlessly. I tried new things: working with a curator, working with the body through kinesiology, playing the piano, stretching, attending a health school, and taking a course in psycho-energetic counseling.

🌟I followed the path of Module 1 (working with myself), and a year later, I arrived at Module 2 (working with others).

I chose this path every day and embraced the new.
🖌I CHOSE, and I CHANGED.

I started using GSR Module 1 immediately after I learned my wife was pregnant.

Our first pregnancy was unsuccessful, so with the news of the second, I was very stressed and fearful.

GSR certainly helped me a lot here.

With this method, I finally realized I wasn’t a very good husband, worker, or, most likely, a future father. I stopped deluding myself that everything would somehow improve and change and simply decided to do GSR Module 1 sessions no matter what.

I gained the resilience I needed. And when my wife would say at 7:30 PM, after I’d just had a snack and was ready to rest, “I need to go to the pharmacy in Moscow because they don’t have this medicine here,” I’d grab it, get ready, and go. It was amazing for me. I had the strength, and without any further discussions, the usual “I want it/I don’t want it” mentality, internal resistance, or self-pity, I just went to the pharmacy.

Then I began to sense a new state for me—I had a special desire to surround my wife with care. Not everything went smoothly, but I had the strength and readiness, and I took action. Then GSR showed me my true situation with my wife: I was just another whiny child for her, and she couldn’t handle two (we hadn’t agreed on that when we got married).

From that point on, I continued doing sessions for myself, sometimes on one thing, sometimes on another. I finally began to learn to take responsibility for myself and my family. GSR has helped me with this and continues to help me with it.

I’ve always said that GSR reveals the problem, and it’s painful, and it immediately and heals this pain. Sometimes I thought that if it weren’t for GSR, I wouldn’t have gotten through all of this. I failed so many little things, and this time was a real test for GSR Module 1. And now I can say with 100% confidence that I passed the test more than successfully.